Last night's dreams brought with them a lot of anxiety. I woke up several times worried about loss. Loss of wealth, loss of love, loss of connection. But with those losses came new beginings. Most of them were centered around my impending move to North Carolina. Its still a year away, as my Student Host position with John C. Campbell Folk Art School doesn't start until Sept 26, 2012, but its on my mind constantly. There is planning and saving to be done.
J came over for dinner last night and of course we talked about it and that spurred the dreams. She's moving to Memphis around the same time for grad school. I did a tarot spread about the move a few days ago. The dreams left me with the same slightly uncertain feeling that the tarot reading left me with. There are big changes coming and for the first time in my life I'm wary of them. I normally embrace change, live for change, love change. This time though I find myself hesitating. Perhaps I'm just getting older, but this feels less like the comfort of old age and more like fear.
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